It's been almost 3 years since my last post and at a blink of an eye, I am finally 28 years old.
(I'm probably writing this because I am wondering why am I still working at 1am on my birthday)
So many things has happened since...
The first major thing that happened since 2012 was that I graduated. It has been my lifelong dream to be free to do what ever I want. I remembered the bitter quarrel and internal struggle I faced in Uni when I had to decide whether or not to listen to my mom's wish to stay in Sg to study for my exam or follow my babee to KL. Tears were shed and I'll never forget that pain and anguish. It was only out of deep love and filial piety that I made the tough decision to stay back in Sg. But it has since hardened my resolve to complete my duty as a son and now I can finally do what ever I want.
The next big thing that happened to me was that I got my first job. It was the key to my freedom. I am now not financially dependent on my parents and no longer do I have to do as they say. I have finally become a man.
Then came the big day. The day that me and my babee have been dreaming of for 8 years. We got married. It was a dream come true for me. This is what it truly means to be living. It was my one true goal that kept me focused all these years and to have finally achieve it... The feeling is indescribable. Our relationship didn't change drastically. In fact, I think it matured. We grew even more in love with each other and are now inseparable.
Finally, to top it all off... I am going to be a Dad. Thinking about it and even writing it down still seems surreal to me. Do I have what it takes to be a great Dad? How will my kid(s) grow up to be like? What will they learn from me? How will they think of me?
Everyone is shaped by their childhood, just like how I feel that I am more family oriented because I have seen how hard my mom slogged, only to miss out on her kid's growth (at times). At the end of it, what kind of childhood will they have and how will they think of me when they are 28 years old?
Gosh.. What exciting times ahead. I can't wait for baby to come out and welcome her to the world. *Hi baby!! I can't wait to see you!
Will you also be writing blogs when you are 16 years old? How would you feel if you were to read your Dad's blog only to discover that I have been through what you are going through? Will you also dream of leaving this nest that me and your mom have built with so much love for you or will you think of us when you are with your bf or husband?
God has given me many blessings: Good family (Ma, Daddy and tiack), my lovely wife, and my first kid. I pray that he will continue to be there with us in good and the tough times and I look forward to the many memories that I will build... with my own hands.
Happy Birthday to me :)
-Mark-
9/03/2015 01:25:00 am
The end point is near. Good riddance to the group of 4 of them. All they ever know is how to complain and smoke us. If I had the chance to re do everything, I would learn what they do from scratch so that they would not be able to complain without end. It would be easier to have their buy in too.
Nevertheless, its pointless for me to start all over now. (It's quite theraputic to prepare my handover documents actually.) I'll just wrap up what I can for my colleagues and wish them all the best. No wonder my manager does not want to convert them to full time. 4 months later and I finally understand his feeling: If he had the chance, he would change the whole team. But what to expect? They were leftovers anyway, so you can't expect much.
I don't want to leave on a sour note. At the very least, I have a boss that supports me (Naggy though but that is a small flaw). Fantastic colleagues who are always willing to help me without a blink of an eye. If only the whole working world is so rosy. It's a dream to work there.
Wonder where my second attachment will be. Wonder what my future will hold. No matter what happens, I'll be comforted in the knowledge that you will always be there for me <3>
-Mark-
11/26/2012 11:31:00 pm
Why all the politics and stupid masquerades?
I guess everyone has something that they want to hide. If only work was a place where everyone can truly be friends just like how we studied in the universities. There are things that we want to protect from being known by others because it will affect our own image. There are things that you shouldn't say in front or behind others because it will reflect bad on you.
Work, report, sleep. Work, report, sleep. Repeat. This is definitely not sustainable. But at least I feel motivated to constantly challenge myself to do better and grow as a person so that I can provide for my babee and my future family tgt with her.
Can't wait till the day we get married and settle down tgt!
-Mark-
7/12/2012 12:09:00 am
Ouch. My upper lip sustained 2 cuts because some hall 6 waterpolo player banged his head against my mouth. Its been almost 5 days and it doesnt seem to get any better even after putting salt (double ouch)
how
-Mark-
2/04/2012 07:00:00 pm
Who is this person that i see in the mirror? What of the expectations that others have on him? What of the expectations that he has of himself? What about all the promises and hardships that will face him when he comes out to the world in 7 months time?
I see a confident yet insecure man. I see a mature yet childish personality. I see a flicker of fire in his eyes, yet is still so naive. I see a passion of wanting to be more than what he can become, yet is held back by things he cannot control.
I am only 24, still young but with lots of responsibilities. I am only 24 yet i want to be 34. I want a good paying job; good advancement in my career; happy with my friends, colleagues, bosses and working hours; drive a nice car; live in a comfortable home with my wife at my side every night, watching the night pass by. Not having to worry about work or the meeting that i'll have tomorrow. She not having to worry about work or the meeting tomorrow. Everything in its place, where it should be.
But why does this never work out for anyone?Are we expecting too much in this lifetime? Can life ever be perfect? Can it ever be sweet and blissful? I know the answer but it is so hard to get there. I know that only God can give me that happiness and that I have to make him the center of my life. I know too that even when the world turns against me, when my parents turn against me, I still have him and I can trust in him completely and get through all hardships. But just how hard it is to make him the center of my life.
God is the cornerstone in my life and from that cornerstone, I build my life. He has given me my Dad who has provided the family with the stability it needs. Given my mom the love that she deserves. He has given me a comfortable family to grow up in. He has given me Debbie whom is the love of my life. And blessed me with the opportunity of being able to study in the University.
I look forward with hope and renewed vigor. That with him all things are possible. I've met with hard times and suffered but without them, i wouldn't be who i am today. More will come and they will only make me come out of my comfort zone and grow up and mature into the man that I will become. The man his son will look up to with admiration and draw inspiration to become a better person that I will ever be.
I pray that we will all find our own happiness. Amen.
-Mark-
11/13/2011 12:00:00 am
Is tough isn't it?
Work, family, friends, girlfriend, money(or the lack of it), bad economy, projects, energy(and the lack of it again)
Why can't life be easy and carefree? Sitting by the balcony chilling or watching a movie in the living room couch and watch the days pass by..
I have yet to reset things in my life and things have started to pile up even more.
I think...... I just need a good sleep today. And hopefully wake up all energetic and ready to FIGHT!
If I have a chance to relive my life... I wish I could be born an ang mor in Australia or New Zealand or somewhere chillax like that
-Mark-
9/04/2011 09:08:00 pm
Just some ramblings after coming out from the shower..
Ok. I'll admit it now. I started off this semester really horribly. If I could, i'll press the reset button right now. Here is why:
- Into the 3rd week and I am already 2 lectures (4hrs) behind time.
- There are 3 tutorials tomorrow and 2 i have not attended the lectures
- I got to do my FYP literature review by Wednesday
- I got to submit my resume to Stephen Chong to vet by this Friday
- On top of all these, I got very important things to do every night
- Go to HDB tonight (maybe)
- Go and discuss about which flat to take on Tuesday night
- Choose my flat (yay!!) on Wednesday morning = missing another 2 hours lecture
- Attend career talks every night
- Meet up with breniel for dinner
- Train or beach nationals
-To top all of it all, I forgot to bring my earphones. That means I cant listen to my online lectures on the go. zzz
Ok. I've straighten out my priorities. Trash training and the career talks and the dinner. I got to settle my school work first. I'm going to catch up and be up to date by the end of this week. Time to press the reset button. Better now than later.
Wish me all the best of luck this Wed. Hope me and debbie can get the balcony unit *prays
-Mark-
8/22/2011 08:43:00 am
